What's Missing?

Lately, I've been feeling like I want more from my relationship with God. I keep thinking I need to be closer. I wonder if I'm doing everything I should. Should I pray more? Maybe if I spent time actually kneeling by my bed. Don't know if my knees could stand more than a couple of minutes, but maybe I need to force myself to do it. Maybe I should read the bible more. What's missing? Why don't I feel that same closeness I did when I first gave my heart to the Lord? I remember feeling euphoric. I want that same fascination, and wonderment to encapsulate me again.

Some people call it revival. They hold special meetings, have special guest speakers, special music. Maybe that helps, I don't know. I'm not sure it's something you can look for, or force to happen. I am wondering if there's anything that would ever help me to feel that way again. After all, it's been almost 20+ years since I gave my life to the Lord. Can it be like we just met all the time?

My husband and I are going to celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary next month. We love each other very much, but I can't say it's the same type of love we had in the beginning. Falling in love is such a high. To find someone who says they love you and wouldn't mind spending the rest of their lives with you, well, it feels very magical. But we both know that it isn't realistic to expect to have that thrilling feeling like we just met after 25 years together. What we have is comfortable, for lack of a better word.

Is a relationship with God any different than being married? Can we expect to produce a magical high somehow? Is it wrong to be "comfortable" with God? Do I take both my husband and God for granted? Sure I do. I could spend more time being appreciative. Maybe that's the key. Perhaps what is missing is not what I can get from a relationship, but what I can give.

Today, I will remember to say thank you for the wonderful things in my life; to be grateful for all that God has given me. And I suppose it wouldn't hurt to let my husband know I appreciate him, too!

Amazing Story of Faith

When I saw this woman today on CNN's Faces of Faith, I was blown away. Her story brought tears, chills and a renewed awe of our God's power to my heart. Her name is Immaculée Ilibagiza. Her book Left to Tell is about the struggle to stay alive during a holocaust in her native country of Rwanda and her discovery of a God that answers prayer. She hid with 7 other women in a small bathroom of the local pastor's house for 91 days. Please see more about her and her book here. There's an interview on YouTube you can check out here. It's a two-part interview, so check for the 2/2 to see the whole story.

It's a Reality ... A New School!

I had the chance to tour the newly built Logan High School last Thursday. Mr. Stirn, our superintendent, showed us through the not-quite-done building pointing out special features. I have to say I was quite impressed. While I was standing there gawking, I thought about how I never thought I'd ever see the day we'd have a brand new high school for Logan. When I was only in grade school, my father had been on a committee to try to round up interest for a new high school. That was in the 60's. Others had tried over the years. Every time, the people said, "No." I felt they were saying they didn't care about me, about my future.

Our old high school was originally built in 1910. Several additions were built on over the years. Although the district has done its best to maintain the building, time has definitely taken its toll and won. The auditorium has been closed for over a year. When the voters passed a vote to build new schools, it was a resounding, "YES," for our kids and their future.

Here are a couple of photos from my visit.


Front entrance. Entry tile floor design.



Nice wide, bright hallways. A greenhouse.



Finishing touches on gym floor. Main gate and ticket booth.